a new me
I haven't blogged for the longest time. I guess work just overwhelmed me and I didn't feel inspired. Or when I was inspired I didn't have the energy. But now things are different. Yes folks, I FINALLY GOT A NEW JOB :)! I've been waiting for this for the longest time and the feeling is just incredible.
For months I'd been stagnating, doing work like a robot (i.e. follow every step of the SOP and you'll get there), running around for people who do not matter to me (which has little meaning except that they are important) and stuck in a rut with no room for creativity or growth. Yes, the high-walled cubicle I sat in was the physical manifestation of the psychological and mental jail in which I was trapped. It probably isn't as bad as it sounds, but I felt just that very often--trapped with no other way to look but outside. I needed to set my foot upon a greener pasture and secure it as my foothold.
This new job came at an unexpected time. I had applied for it in January and to be honest, I wasn't terribly keen on it. After a month, I thought I didn't stand a chance since they needed someone with at least five years experience. And what did it matter, it wasn't as if I was dying to get it. Then the call came in March and I jumped at the chance, especially since no one had called me up for interviews. I thought, maybe this is my break. And it was! The interview went more like a chat--the questions they asked were as if I had already gotten the job and were getting to know me better. On the same day, I bumped into one of the interviewers on the bus. It was a psychic moment. He smiled and said: "Is this a sign? By the way, you will be hearing good news from our HR in the next two weeks, but probably sooner." My heart missed a beat. "Are you sure?", I asked just before alighting. He nodded firmly and I got off the bus feeling lighter than I had felt in a long time.
When the call finally came, I was ecstatic. I knew this was it. My cage was finally open and I could fly out, but not without tying things up where I was and of course, getting through the whole awkward tender process. Thankfully my boss didn't freak out and though it's not complete yet, I know the end is very near. I haven't started on the new job but am assimilating and getting to know the people already, which includes a tea treat from the big boss and a fun session with my colleagues-to-be. BRILLIANT :)! I can just feel like the real me, or perhaps, the new me, is emerging. It's sad that my current job had closed me up for much of the week to who I really was. I wasn't able to be myself. This place I'm going to is cool, creative, fun and full of passionate individuals. This is the place I was meant to be and though I will not look back, I am thankful for the opportunities and experience I had with my current job, which gave me the platform to fly.
I'm really looking forward to the real me, to this place where I can dream a little wilder, smile, dance and sing a little more and serve people who matter. Thank you God, indeed you are faithful and worthy of the highest praise! This new energy, this joy and peace I feel, I'm speechless. It's YOU :)!
For months I'd been stagnating, doing work like a robot (i.e. follow every step of the SOP and you'll get there), running around for people who do not matter to me (which has little meaning except that they are important) and stuck in a rut with no room for creativity or growth. Yes, the high-walled cubicle I sat in was the physical manifestation of the psychological and mental jail in which I was trapped. It probably isn't as bad as it sounds, but I felt just that very often--trapped with no other way to look but outside. I needed to set my foot upon a greener pasture and secure it as my foothold.
This new job came at an unexpected time. I had applied for it in January and to be honest, I wasn't terribly keen on it. After a month, I thought I didn't stand a chance since they needed someone with at least five years experience. And what did it matter, it wasn't as if I was dying to get it. Then the call came in March and I jumped at the chance, especially since no one had called me up for interviews. I thought, maybe this is my break. And it was! The interview went more like a chat--the questions they asked were as if I had already gotten the job and were getting to know me better. On the same day, I bumped into one of the interviewers on the bus. It was a psychic moment. He smiled and said: "Is this a sign? By the way, you will be hearing good news from our HR in the next two weeks, but probably sooner." My heart missed a beat. "Are you sure?", I asked just before alighting. He nodded firmly and I got off the bus feeling lighter than I had felt in a long time.
When the call finally came, I was ecstatic. I knew this was it. My cage was finally open and I could fly out, but not without tying things up where I was and of course, getting through the whole awkward tender process. Thankfully my boss didn't freak out and though it's not complete yet, I know the end is very near. I haven't started on the new job but am assimilating and getting to know the people already, which includes a tea treat from the big boss and a fun session with my colleagues-to-be. BRILLIANT :)! I can just feel like the real me, or perhaps, the new me, is emerging. It's sad that my current job had closed me up for much of the week to who I really was. I wasn't able to be myself. This place I'm going to is cool, creative, fun and full of passionate individuals. This is the place I was meant to be and though I will not look back, I am thankful for the opportunities and experience I had with my current job, which gave me the platform to fly.
I'm really looking forward to the real me, to this place where I can dream a little wilder, smile, dance and sing a little more and serve people who matter. Thank you God, indeed you are faithful and worthy of the highest praise! This new energy, this joy and peace I feel, I'm speechless. It's YOU :)!
posted by goddazz @ 10:22 PM
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