musings of a goddazz

Saturday, July 08, 2006

Of parents and children

The Mr Brown saga this week just goes to show that our government is not serious (at least for now) about a "light touch approach" with regard to new media. More like a "press button hard and short circuit to stop people from seeing the light" approach. Netizens are of course very sore about Mr Brown's column being suspended and everyone is swearing on the Internet, but as my good friend said, one good thing about this is that Rockson has started blogging again. Since everybody is so gloomy about this, let me try and do a mild Rockson...

Today is first time in a long long time I feel paiseh to be a Singaporean. Most of my life I feel damn proud to be Singaporean. We are world first in so many things and people say our gahmen is world class also. I agree.

The way I see our gahmen is like they are damn good parents who work damn hard for their chilren. They love ah boy ah girl so much they give them good education and then when they go university they suddenly got their own brain and become very smart, even smarter than their parents. This is not a bad thing. So many chilren smarter than their parents what. Problem is, ah boy ah girl once they got their own brain sometimes start to joke about things they see. After all, ah boy say, nowsadays life is so stressful joke a bit is quite shiok. And ah girl say doesn't mean we become so smart must talk like chao PSC scholar. We study so hard still got heartlander heart, cannot be so serious all the time if not life is for squat. As long as don't hurt anybody is no harm. So ah boy ah girl never commit crime but just want to play play say a bit of funny things only then daddy mummy buoy song. They say: "Wah, I sacrifice so much for you and yet you dare to say this kind of thing. I damn heart pain man." (beat chest) "From now, you better tiam tiam and respect your lao pei lao bu."

Ah boy ah girl hear this damn heart pain and stress also. From now say a bit of funny thing kena scolding. Might as well don't talk lah! What I have to say to daddy mummy is, take it easy man. Better for your high blood. The world change already, your ah girl ah boy got their own brain you must accept. You can force them to tiam tiam but no way you can change their brain. The more you want to force, the more they want to climb over your head. One day they kick you out of the house how? Now that will be true heart pain (beat your chest some more). You must think about your future. So long your chilren feel safe in your arms, so long they trust you. Now because they just joke a bit and you buoy song they don't trust you anymore. That's why they say sometimes in life we step the wrong way cannot gostan anymore. You want to go back to old times when ah boy ah girl run into your arms? Sweet dreams lah.

I feel sad for gahmen. Because as I say, daddy mummy are good parents. Just that Singaporean got kiasu in their genes, sometimes very difficult to let go of chilren. Ah boy ah girl will always be chilren to them, don't care even if they got phd, get married and got their own chilren also cannot change things one. Let go is always hard. But then the world change, we also must change. Must start talking to ah boy ah girl and know what they are thinking. Must read their brain try to understand why they think different. Maybe it is like this, don't care how many donkey years people still got generation gap problem. Maybe must wait for new generation to take over then got change.

I dunno lah. Now got screw up very difficult to fix. Some more people when they angry cannot stop scolding and cannot see the truth. Our gahmen is very the powerful, but too powerful also the people become rebellious want to fight. Few years later we see how come got so many people is Chee Soon Juan kao bei type of pattern then it is really sad case man.

So what to do now, you say? Everybody take it easy lah. As Chinese say, xin1 jing4 zi4 ran2 liang2. Only when your heart is peaceful, then your brain can think properly and then you can say things not so rash. I hope one day Singapore can really become first world. When Singaporeans can watch NDP on high-definition vodcast don't care where you are in the world. And everybody hold Singapore flag high, wave and sing song. Nice and peaceful, not bad right? Now ah boy ah girl and daddy mummy must cool down, have good talk, eat nice dinner at Crystal Jade and make up. After all, we are one big family right? I hope so lah :)

Sunday, July 02, 2006

A Breakup, A New Beginning...

After three long years, I'm single again. Boy and I decided to split yesterday after a good heart-to-heart discussion. There were tears, but not as many as I thought there would be. There was some sadness, but more relief and peace at the soundness of our decision. We decided that we were still young and needed to meet more people in order to be surer of what we want in a life partner, and in life. I'm glad we parted as good friends who love each other dearly and who can feel comfortable having a chat or just joking about things common to us both.

I never thought a breakup could be this smooth-sailing. After all, three years is a long time and we did share many beautiful moments together and in the process, learnt so much more about ourselves. It still feels a little surreal but I'm slowly easing into singlehood and finding it very refreshing. It's like a big load is off my shoulders and I don't have to worry about how much money to save for a wedding or a house, how much I need to grow up, how much more responsible I need to be, etc. Right now I'm just looking forward to making new friends, doing new things, strengthening my existing friendships, travelling to new places, even contemplating a career switch... I'm excited about starting this new journey and so is Boy.

My first day of singlehood was carefree and very enjoyable. I met an old friend for lunch, visited DFS for the first time (my, didn't know the ground floor is so touristy!), tried on lip gloss about 12 times before buying one from Stila and celebrated with a cool gelato treat. We decided to watch The Marriage of Figaro by the Singapore Lyric Opera since we have never been to an opera. The Marriage of Figaro is incidentally one of the most performed operas. Hopefully it'll be comprehensible and an enjoyable experience. We also discussed the possibility of going to the US / Canada / Korea / Japan next year. Terribly excited about this and hope it comes true. It'll be another adventure, albeit different from our thrilling escapade to the Big Apple, which we miss terribly. We both suffer from severe bagel and cream cheese withdrawal symptoms. Are there really no good bagels in Singapore? I am afraid I have to believe so, unless someone knows better and is willing to enlighten us.

Boy, I trust you are feeling as good as I am. I wish you all the best and thank you for the past four years too. If I had the choice to turn back time, I wouldn't have wanted things to be different. Now, let us live life to the full and embrace adventure, excitement and all the things we stand for. Now is the time. Carpe diem and bon voyage!

Boy's breakup post